I wanted to change the world. But I have found that the only thing one can be sure of changing is oneself.

POINT COUNTER POINT, ALDOUS HUXLEY

I'm getting too self-assured!

Dear all, hi hi and hi. 


Will be leaving in a week for Cambodia. Will be MIA-ing for five days then. Half of December will be spent in China so I'll be MIA-ing then too. 


This blog will be dead till next year then. Life will go on and I'll feel like posting about life's events but what's the point?


So bye. 


Let's keep in touch though:)


I'll leave happy if I know that you'll live, optimistic. Remember the golden rules:
1. Who cares about what they say?
2. The going might get tough but remember the barney eats grass song.
3. ALL OF LIFE'S MISERY CAN'T BE SUMMED UP IN THREE GOLDEN RULES!
4. You're right. They can't. So here's a fourth rule: ask if you need help. You have my number I think. It's on Facebook anyway. 


heh. it's not like anyone will die if I stop coming online. 


but I <3 you X)


Farewell, farewell! 

FRAUD! 


You come in, check my time
You for fornication crimes
I've seen your hope on television
Where you've been, you were not were
They've got tricycles in skirts
This is a mouth that needs religion


Keep a pen in your pocket 
and remember to cap it,
take it out before your
skirt/shorts/jeans/trousers 
go into the wash. 

Dear journal, diary,blog-.- ,

I went on another adventure today!


I took a bus to the Red Tomato, I went to Buangkok, the big guy drove me to Novena, I train-ed to Douby Ghout, hey HQ!, went home. 


I planned a long post during dinner but it got lost halfway through. Darn. 

I ate bread stuffed with jam and berries for breakfast. It stained the tissue black. I dislike the secondary twos, they remind me of the past. I feel nervous for the secondary fours, they show me the future. I'm neutral about the secondary ones, little noisy children they are. I LOVE the secondary threes because I'm biased and Rui Min likes to touch grasshoppers and Mr Kang got Inception to daze us and we study together and go on camps and outings and ccas together and See Miang is a naughty ReverSee and Jaslyn reads the world like it's a Korean drama and because they are all so nice, all so nice, all so nice, all so nice. 

"Say fuhgeddboudit, Corrie."

   "Fergettaboutit."

"No no no, say fuhgeddboudit."

   "Fergettaboutit."

"Oh, man, fuhgeddboudit!"

   "Okay, Tillie," he said, "I'll fuh-get-bout-it."

The world spins. We stumble on. It is enough. 

- Let the Great World Spin, Colum McCann

And if a double-decker bus
Crashes in to us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well the pleasure, the privilege is mine


I'm starting revision today. 
- sec one math
-finish "let the great world spin" though it make me depressed D: 


DO NOT GIVE UP ON YOUR REVISION AND GO ON FACEBOOK BEE. 
Okay. I'm going offline. Won't be replying till tomorrow. 


Sayonara. 

Currently watching:
Le Fabuleux Destin D'Amelie Poulain


Give it a chance!

http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Am%C3%A9lie

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling


You fooled me again
You fooled me again
With your
Honest honest honest eyes


I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah 


So I can ask myself really what is going wrong
With this world that we living in
People keep on giving in
Makin wrong decisions
Only visions of them livin and
Not respecting each other
Deny thy brother
The wars' going on but the reasons' undercover
The truth is kept secret
Swept under the rug
If you never know truth
Then you never know love
Where's the love y'all?(I don't know)
Where's the truth y'all?(I don't know)


It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile


Oh haha. I'm spamming quotable, inspirational lyrics because I'm filling my playlist with songs from my childhood. Yeah childhood. So haha.  It's for future reference. 
And because Unwritten's soooo nice, here's the entire song:


"Unwritten"
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah 

Let's dance to joy division,
And celebrate the irony,
Everything is going wrong,
But we're so happy.

(Y)

It curled around. 
can't breathe.
It squeezed. 
gasp. 

In Interworld, Joey had to cram shimmigans in camp. These shimmigans proved useful when he graduated and went on missions in the Altiverse. He studied hard and the knowledge lasted and saved him. Hmmm...

On Earth, this Earth, Superbee will have to start cramming for exams. These science/math/humanities shimmigans will prove useful when she graduates and go on missions in Adultworld. She will study hard so that the knowledge will be imprinted in her brain. It will save her. Hmmmm.

The Audacious Wombat
The Magnificent Lady Melancholy
Suzie Linear

This is an angst-y post so don't kill yourself. I need to reorganise too so ha. This is a messy post. You have been warned.

If you were to step into my shoes, and I, yours, how will you view my life, what will you make of the people around me, what will you feel? sympathy? disgust? admiration? perhaps I flatter myself too much. will you feel empathy? will you really?

and what will I see from your eyes? what do you want to show them? how do you want me to act? shall I hide from myself the way you hide from yourself?

There are so many things that I wish to share but the words don't come and even if they do, they don't come out right. There are so many things that I wish to share but the right words won't come.

I try not to talk about the day to day happenings of my life. What's the point of reminiscing about the past?
But there are things that I wish to remember!
Why?
They make me feel good.
Feelings, feelings, feelings.
What's the point?
Feelings give us life.
Where will life be if we have no 'fillings' ah?

0.0
Okay...I should stop now but I can't because this burning ache within me flames and compels me to go on regardless of the very blatant (are they really there? point them out) grammatical mistakes that fill this... Perhaps it's the fever. I don't know what I'm talking about. No, I know but I don't understand why. It's those blasted emotions again. Sleep will be a reprieve only it won't. Not if you dream dreams that won't go away in the morning. Dreams that cloud your mind like fine mist, so slowly and so unexpectedly.

I don't leave the house sometimes because I'm afraid of being judged. They say it's easy to just ignore the others but it's not. Not always anyway. I see a rainbow of emotions on their faces and sometimes it's so beautiful, I laugh. However it's mostly ugly and I'll feel anger/sad. And it's almost always that other humans are the cause of this ugliness. That's why I'm semi-misanthropic.

I believe I should end off soon...
You ask me why Anglo-Chinese, why Raffles? Perhaps it's because they know how to put the thoughts that fester in my mind into words so eloquently. No, it's not the school, it's the people that I admire. No, not like students in a neighbourhood school with their range of dialects and their inability to comprehend and provide an answer. Of course, it's not the case for everybody but looking at the majority...  There are times where I'm really glad I'm in one. It's here that I experience things that I won't experience elsewhere but I'm sorry. I tend to focus on imperfections and their flaws shine like the gaudy lights in Geylang. I'm cruel like that and I'm sorry.
Because I'm shallow and pretentious.
Because I reject the very people that I'm classed with. 
No. Everybody is equal. 
Because I know that there's equality but I am ruled by prejudice.
Because I judge.
Because I think like that.
Because I think that death might be a solution

But I'm afraid. I want to live but I don't want to live like this. I must change my ways but I don't allow myself to. Why?

Why?

I apologise for the inordinate amount of 'I's. I don't want to talk about myself either but JUDGE ME. You're going to do that now right?

(Y)

Dear readers,

I'm afraid I won't spam posts anymore. As Colonel Buba grumbles, "Bee, people don't simply mass spam posts when they're bored. They do something worthwhile like STUDY or WRITE or STONE..." So well, that's it. 

Hold on. 

FU YOU STUPID WOMAN WHAT'S UP WITH YOU AND YOUR FUCKING INNUENDOS? 

Right. 

To sum it up, I won't spam posts so often so don't waste your time here. Go live your life. Byeeee. Thanks for reading, thanks for commenting, thanks for being so nice. It's unfair that you're all so nice but I'm not giving you anything in return so here's a simple song I hope you'll remember if you ever feel unhappy. I know it's Barney HEY DON'T ROLL YOUR EYES but sometimes the simplest things make the most sense. 

There was a hole in the middle of the ground. The prettiest hole that you ever did see, and the hole in the ground, and the green grass grows all around all around, and the green grass grows all around and in this hole,
there was a tree. The prettiest tree that you ever did see, and the tree grew, watered by tears of joy and pain,

and the tree knew, oh the tree knew, that though it gets tough sometimes and you're festering alone and you feel like giving up and it seems easier to just do so, listen and give up. And I'll laugh. I'll laugh at your hurt because it was self-hurt. I'll laugh at your pain because you gave yourself pain. You had a chance but you gave it up and that's a pity. 

And the pretty tree rotted in the pretty hole and the green grass grew long and dangerous. 

I really like this version of Viva La Vida. It's a sad song and for it to be sung with such hope... it's kinda pretty...

So well, goodbye. 

Sincerely,

Chin up! 

P.S. Do stop laughing/cringing. Thank you.

:)



www.beeoftheuniverse.tumblr.com

No... I'm not on crack, I'm not on heroin, I'm not on pot, I'm not on (checks SANA handbook)*

I'M ON...I'm on...
the fluffy life train with orange horns.

CHOO CHOO!

Desperate yes I am. Desperately bored I am. I am desperately bored.

Sincerely,
Desperado bored

Why don't you come to your senses?/ Come down from the broken fences.../ You're/ Crumbling.

38.1

The cow ate grass and got high!

Wooo! Wooo! Wooo! Wooo!

Hi! I'm the anal bee from the alt. universe. We eat shit and shit ice cream here. My mother sits on the porch, her hands folded across her lap, demure in twilight. She shivers as cold wind blows. Shivers the night away...  Hey do you want some ice-cream? Chocolate is okay right? That's the only colour you'll get anyway. She sits by the window, the curtains tied back. Dressed in lace, she waits as the night gets colder and the hours longer. It just got frostier. Shivers* 

I'd say that this is darkest song I ever wrote.
No hint of a smile,
or the usual quirky anecdotes.
No, this is a song about someone knew what not to say,
what not to do,
so now,
I think I'll just be honest.

I hope that no one ever leaves,
'cause I don't wanna be alone with me,
not with the things that rush up and down this symphonous smile.

Here comes the love anxiety,
can't let it grab a hold of me,
not after last time.

Why'd you have to wear skirts and heels like that?
She's blinding anyway but now she's floodlighting up the match.

Well it's 20 minutes 'til showtime,
but the backstage is the stage tonight,
so now,
I think I'll just be honest.

I hope that no one ever leaves,
'cause I don't wanna be alone with me,
not with the things that rush up and down this symphonous smile.

Here comes the love anxiety,
can't let it grab a hold of me,
not like the last time.

Here comes the love anxiety,
it's gonna grab a hold of me,
just like the last time. 

I shoke the world but no one fell out. Maybe they got sucked in instead :O

Wait. He doesn't know! (Y)

I just found out that someone from somewhere stays at where I used to stay. Someone knew but didn't say anything even when we met at ulp and now that person is probably going to come here and see this isn't he? -.-

How embarrassing. Did you see things that you weren't supposed to see? That's basically everything by the way. I'm a weird, retarded person. My life isn't pretty so if you ever see anything, wipe it off your mind.

WIPE IT OFF.

Thank you.



This is stupid. Typing like that vv its stupid.

Oh hello hello hello!
I simply enjoy speaking to my cousin! He's the only twelve-year-old I know who discusses hedge funds and Bill Gates. Oh wow. I'm intimidated. :O

Again.
Yeah...

Well onward to my recount of today.

Woke up, went to school an hour early, sat at my table, ate two sandwiches, read a book, went to the hall...
FOR THE FIRST DAY OF PEA. Can you believe we'll have to endure four hours of the birds and the bees talk on Friday? That's SICK. They had this talk for four times already by the way. What are they trying to imply? D:

Co-form crapped about cyber-bullying today and knowing how much he is hated by his class, he happened to drop some hints about oh "I caught this girl who bad-mouthed me on her blog, I have ways of finding people who shit about me, I have a lot of friends who are lawyers..." Yeah... right. That's the same teacher who told us that Alice in Wonderland was written by C.S. Lewis. That's the same ENGLISH teacher. Facepalm* Remind me to wooooooeeeeeep private the class blog. Wouldn't want to be sued when he sees this.




-Intermission-






My grammar is getting worse. WHAT IS HAPPENING? I blame the people around me. I spent five minutes correcting Chantal on her 'are's and 'is's today and the end result was a thoroughly confused me. But that's unfair really. She pwns me hands down in/at Chinese. Oh shit. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? CRIES*

W/e. I should cut down on blogging too -.-



-Second Intermission-



We had a talk on 'making our parents our partners' today. Had the luck of sitting beside some... people.
Speaker: Who likes k-pop?
Girls beside: Raise hands*
Speaker: Who likes the Bee Gees?
Girls beside: Orh that one. I know, I know. Raise hands*

Pull up your skirt lah, your undies are showing. How fake can they get? Facepalm*

Still, the talk had the entire school captivated.

It's not how you started but how you live the rest of your lives. The school was eerily quiet when he talked his daughter in rgs and the lowest point of his life - failing the 'O's and re-taking it. I guess we all felt something when he said that. He got really passionate in his speech about pride (he called himself fat man and kept referring to his ri days where he played rugby and was the captain of the soft-ball team). I cried  when he talked about how he was in Bei Jing, how he had to take the first flight home, how terrified he was, when his father died. It reminded my of MY father and his mother. He was in China when she died too. I remember how he brushed me off the first day of her funeral. He came directly from the airport and was distraught. It was all over his face. Oh well.

See that quote above? The bold words? It left a lasting impression.

And I should really pick up my pen again, before I forget how to.

: O

#6

WARNING: blabbers and rambles.

HA EVERYONE'S STUDYING AND I'M HERE WITH NINE DAYS WORTH OF HOLIDAYS. It feels great maaaaaaaan. Dances around*  

I'm terribly hungry. Apparently I'm expected to get my own lunch but I can't because I don't cook and can't be bothered to go out. I'm lazy like that :P I suppose it's time to rummage the fridge. brb. 

I'm eating coloured sugar now:D

ROFL ROFL ROFL. Just found out that I wasn't the only stalker from my unit. ROFL ROFL. Don't we all love stalking? ROFL. It's nice being young sometimes... we have the time to make mistakes, as long as we learn from them of course. 

Zzzzzzzzz. I don't want to go to Novena today... But I have to don't I? D:

#6

Going on tumblr and finding DPS fans in random places FTW.

#5

Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the leftover you
And how do you know when to let go
Where does the good go
Where does the good go

#4

:O

I think I'll start over and get my priorities checked. 

I don't think I know what I want anymore...  

#3

I saw and was shocked. I knew then that I couldn't compare unless... I start now and continue the routine for ever and ever and ever till it's over and I'm up to standard.

ONE YEAR ISN'T ENOUGH :O AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I'LL START TOMORROW AND PRAY THAT IT'S NOT TOO LATE.

Parents are sooooo naggy. Nag nag nag nag nag. Zzzzzzzz.

#2

Oh hello. 

I'm doing the report for the Li Jiang trip now. 

(Y) 

Oh and I'm still pretty bored. I have things to do but I'm not doing them. Why? :O I can't wait till school ends really. I really do want to go out. Oh and swimming at 3am is not quite possible. I'll get chased out and I'm afraid of being alone. Perhaps I should get an accomplice. Of course I'll ask her after her 'O's. I do hope that she'll agree. 

OH AM I RAMBLING AGAIN? 

:D 

#1

spastic-nanobeesfromthealtuniverse

I wanted to change it to spastic-nanobeesfromanaltuniverse at first but then I thought of davida s. holinone and I knew that I could never have spastic-nanobeesfromanaltuniverse as my url. I'm restricted like that :O


But that's okay because we all know that it's not nice to ridicule other people's last name. So I won't do that. I am pretty nice after all. 
Now, you must be wondering... THIS IS INANE WHY CHANGE YOUR URL AGAIN POINTLESS I SAY. THIS IS POINTLESS I SAY. 


To which I'll reply... BOREDOM DRIVES YOU TO COMMIT INANE ACTS and I'm bored... D:

Ramble ramble bush and bramble
Roses, thorns and unicorn horns

SPASTIC NANO BEES FROM MY ALT. UNIVERSE!
You know they're good.
winks*

I wonder...
Why the English teachers call me Bern.

They talk about us don't they? >.<

I'm bleeding. My nose's bleeding. Oh there's blood.

what will bring me home
what will make me stay, stay
what will bring me home
what will make me stay, stay
well I don't know
I don't know, ooh
I don't know
I don't know, ooh 

Get things done and over with. That's better. Yes, let two weeks later rush at me.

I'll catch it.

Look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive

Look me in the heart and tell me you won't go

Look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love

Look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen

Now is good.
Not looking forward to two weeks later >.<

STARE*

You can't start a fire
You can't start a fire without a spark
This gun is for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark

You can't start a fire
Sitting around crying over a broken heart
This gun is for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark


Tegan and Sara <3


I'm mass spamming their songs now and there's so many pretty excerpts! Let's do this post by post shall we? To prevent overwhelm-ation. :D 

Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right...

Oh and there was this one song which was very familiar.
So I was like OH. RGCHOIR DID THAT SONG TOO.

:D

VBC was eye-opening. 0.0

And they were sooooo cuuuuute!
LAUGHS*

The show wasn't in English so I was dazing throughout but man can they go high. I was drifting from dreamy to hey, mistake to zzz to I wish the person beside me will stop breathing so heavily.

I don't like it when people breathe loudly and they seem to do that when watching recitals. The concert hall will be so silent and there'll be heavy breathing and weird noises. 0.0

:OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
But recitals are still fun when you sit upstairs and get a bird's eye view of the entire place. Then you can study people and catch others sleeping.

oh and I should really go there for more photos.

At night probably. The spike window thing gives a GREAT view+your reflection.

Abrupt ending.

Perhaps mutual tolerance might help?
Aren't you suppose to maintain a healthy junior-senior relationship XP

Lijiang. My god I can't wait.

@CHEWWIEWHONOLONGERVISITSTHISBLOGORMEANYMORE

VBC @ esplanade TONIGHT! WOOHOO!

Brb @ 11.

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need them, oh
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had, just enough time
.


Wistful. 

And they wouldn't know! Shuttling between both - shifting into the shadows, emerging into the light.

How many roles do we play?

It's burning again.

It's different this time. 

It's not an itch.

It's an ache.

A burning ache. 

Results were crap. Don't know how to face everyone. Don't know what to say. I shouldn't say anything at all.

At least we're singing kimi wo nosete for Choir. That gave me an idea that might hopefully, fingers crossed* work.

Refrain from commenting please. I don't need to hear anything.

It was supposed to be easy! It felt easy and I did it so easily! SHITTY RESULTS. Stop messing with my mind.

And it sends shivers down my spine. It's so tranquil. So quiet and so dark.

The shadows dance as I stare up at the ceiling and it's so soothing. So soothing.

Silent scream*

Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy. Malfoy.

People can get so hateful.

I guess they won't rest till we've split. Way to go, adding fuel to the fire. Let's watch it burn.
Edited 07/10: You seem to have changed your mind. Have I made a mistake?

@Brother: You idiot. I'm preventing you from making the same mistake that I did. You don't get it do you?

Asshole.

@Mother: You don't trust me do you? Well stuff it up your arse. I'm going to school myself tomorrow. 

Thanks for making me sad.  

That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.
 That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.
 That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.
That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.
That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.
That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.
That's pathetic. That's pathetic. That's pathetic.

Wheeeee

There's an itch that I can't scratch and it consumes me. I'm looking for the right words but they don't come and the itch burns. Oh how it burns. ah. ahhhhh. But it's good itch. It's a good itch. It'll bring me far and it'll make me wiser.

Let it BURN.

Hasta la vista baby.

The itch compels me to be offline and hard at work on the XJ master plan.

Winks*

The Convo that started the XJ Master Plan:

darling. dearest, dead. says:

 woah cool!

OH YOU KNOW?
darling. dearest, dead. says:

 today's Physics test, they put in questions from the TYS

[c=#0080FF]♥Xin Jie                            Rui En <3[/c] says:

 this sucks.

darling. dearest, dead. says:

 I was like woah lucky I read TYS.

[c=#0080FF]♥Xin Jie                            Rui En <3[/c] says:

 they should give harder qns.

darling. dearest, dead. says:

AND WOAH LUCKY YOU ASK ME TO BUY

[c=#0080FF]♥Xin Jie                            Rui En <3[/c] says:

 to distinguish your concepts

 TOLD YOU.

 LOOOL.

Xin Jie <33333333

Blabber

Two years to persuade you.
One year to train him.
One year till...

WAKAWAKAWAKA!

Blab

: ) I just felt like blabbing.

BLAB.

Undisclosed

People are going woooooooooep private. WHY? :O WHY? :O

ROFL.
Are you really asking that?
He he hehehehehehehehee.

They want privacy don't they? I want privacy too but I suppose I'm used to this already. I won't care if you read my posts and I won't care if you judge me because this is my blog and I have my rights. Hoo Ha. I'll sulk/go high/ramble/w/e if I want to.

(Y)

Weep

She checks her pulse, gotta know if her heart's still beating 
And the hospital's, not far if anything should happen here 

She's bored in a week, big dreams but nothing material 
And I refuse to believe that love is for the weak 
I said I'm not vulnerable 

Hey lady, don't give up on me 
Don't burn your heart out love 
Till we're ash over seas 
Hey lady, said I don't wanna fight 
Like pretty girls need cowboys 
I need you here tonight 

She screams for more 
More than just some blue eyed metaphor 
and the trouble is, The trouble is: 
She's always searching. 
And the hour's late, Don't wanna hear that its all gonna end soon. 
And I'm not crazy I'm in control, and all of my friends still know 

Hey lady, don't give up on me 


Don't burn your heart out love
Till we're ash over seas
Hey lady, said I don't wanna fight
Like pretty girls need cowboys
I need you here tonight

I'm on one knee, lover please
How can I put it more simply?
And I wait, for your invitation
And I'm so so so, so over waiting
I'm on one knee, lover please
How can I put it more simply?

Hey lady, don't give up on me
Don't burn your heart out love
Till we're ash over seas
Hey lady, said I don't wanna fight
Like pretty girls need cowboys
I need you here tonight


-Hey Lady,
Thriving Ivory

Blush

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know

If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go


Facepalm and shoots self* You're right. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know anything D:

Culture

I'm so going to Swen Subway!

Pissy you. Stop making me feel so horrible.

AND I'M FIEND OOPS I MEAN FRIEND-LESS
Because you forgot and I'm forgotten D:

Oh great.

AND NEIL GAIMAN'S INTERWORLD IS NOW WITH ME! SCREAMS*


What the heck. And now you're blaming me for your stress? Oh thank you. Do note that I did those DURING my exams too okay? GRAGH. 

Zap

Taking my time on this one. Hmm. It's not procrastination. No it isn't. It's not. Really.

Big sigh*

What am I doing really?

I like to talk about 'I' and 'me' and hardly 'you'. I'm sorry if I'm self-centered.

So let me ramble about me.

I'm still looking for change. Is it happening? I'm trying. I am. But I can do better can't I? We can always do better.

I'll stay buried in Novena, my playlist, the privacy of my room, Xin Jie's master-plan, swimming at night and books - self-help, the classics, Popular, Times, books on proofs, books on writing, books on poetry, TYSes, assessments, book sales, second-hand book stores, THE LIBRARY, heaven of heavens, and my growing book-list. And friends. And you. And her. And him. I'll do this for me and you, my friend with a goal. I'll do this for me and you.

And if that doesn't change me, I hope toilet constructing in Cambodia helps. Let's get a new perspective of life. Go experience life there and get inspired bee. It says so in the brochure.

Twitterature

Currently reading: Twitterature!

It makes the classics easier to understand:D 

Storm brewing. Class gonna explode soon. Den den den den. 

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

I want to watch this. Added to the Must-do list.

Thriving Ivory

Do you dream, that the world will know your name 
So tell me your name 
Do you care, about all the little things or anything at all? 
I wanna feel, all the chemicals inside I wanna feel 
I wanna sunburn, just to know that I'm alive 
To know I'm alive 

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know 
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go 
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon 
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon 

Do you believe, in the day that you were born 
Tell me do you believe? 
Do you know, that everyday's the first of the rest of your life 

Don't tell me if I'm dying, cause I don't wanna know 
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go 
Don't wake me cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon 
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon 



Life ftw. 


Breathe. Aren't you glad that you're alive? 

Swell

Storefront window, I reflect
Just last week I was merely heck
Tip the scale. I was hell
Picked me up, then I fell
Who's this stranger? Crowbar spine
Dot dot dot and I feel fine
Let it rain, rain, rain (rain)
Bring my happy back again


Cambodia Briefing was hilarious. I was facepalm-ing throughout. Thanks Lena. Thanks DM. Thanks external vendors. 


I could hug you. A MATH YOU SAVED ME. 


(Y)

I wandered lonely as a cloud

You're a distraction. 

Ugh. Inspiration by the bucketful. Storing. 

Funny

Isn't it funny? Not harhar funny. The other funny. 

Isn't it funny? That our lives are running concurrently?

 I'll be typing and you'll be sleeping and she'll be studying and he'll be in the toilet. 

And some will be alive

while others breathe their last. 

Time

It passes too fast. We'll be sixteen in a year and twenty-one in five. Woah. Before you know it, we'll be dead and rotting..

I shouldn't think that far.

That's not right. Not right at all.

It gets really sad

It does.

Years will pass but you'll still remember. It seems like yesterday but then you'll wake up and realise that it's gone.

Well.

D:

It's so sad. So sad. So sudden and so sad.

Booklist!

I'm excited. Just two more papers. Two more papers and it's a whole new world.
Things I seriously want to do:

• Booklist! Buy/borrow the books on my booklist! OH OH I'll post it here :D*
• Start on the Xin Jie master plan! :OOOOOO Weird that I'm taking studying seriously only after the exams : P
• Try swimming at 3am in the morn. 
• Study with Brenda at our favourite haunt. 
• Cambodia trip
• Accreditations
• Archery!
• Lijiang trip
• Sleep

No matter how frightened and discouraged I may become about the future, I look forward to it. In spite of everything I see all around me every day, I have a shaky assurance that everything will turn out fine; and I don’t think I’m the only one. Why else would the phrase “Everything is alright” ease a troubled place in so many of us? We just don’t know, we never know, yet we have so much faith. We hold our hands over our hurts and lean forward. It is how we keep on, this kind of hope.”

—	Elizabeth Berg (via julie911)

Silicon, saline, poison, inject me.
*Book list!

Misery :D

Can't stop posting. There's too many really nice, really meaningful quotes to reblog.

One last one...

Why didn’t I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.
Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, Jonathan Safran Foer (via fuckyeahliteraryquotes) 

AH. YOU READ MY MIND.

:)

ftw

I don’t want to repeat my innocence. I want the pleasure of losing it again.
This Side of Paradise, F. Scott Fitzgerald

  

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Biology

I can't believe what you said to me
Last night we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up.

Facepalm and shoots myself*

Only A Math can save me now.

Ate my heart. 

OMG it's Friday (Y) 

Fridays FTW.

YAY FRIDAY!

FRIDAYSARELOVE-D 

Yay.