It was only.

From the previous post:
           OH SHIT! My super uber imba post got backspaced autosaved. I'll post again after Biology.

Biology is tomorrow but I couldn't resist posting.


It rained two days ago. Do you remember? My window was filled with tears. Really pretty. I took a photo and it's on FB. So I looked through one of those tears and I saw the world

and it was upside down.

I've been wondering, if someone, anyone really, picked up the Earth and shook it - will we fall out?

little people, little floating people in vacuum.




You wish to capture that instant moment. The lost tenderness of time...

Chemistry was today and Emath was two days ago. I phailed miserably. :O I don't know what to say. Why? Why what? Why why? Why not how? Why why why. I deserved it. I didn't study till 4am and that's bad. BAD. Tomorrow's Biology. There's still A math and Chinese. Those can't be gone case or I'll really facepalm, shoot myself*  I still have time to study. Come on, let's chiong. There's no time for regrets now.

And I told her of my problems and she was sympathetic. It seems that sometimes we can feel all we want but no one will really care. Pause* Of course, they do care. It helps sometimes but it's not their problem. So.
 I suspect that we don't really care ourselves either. It seems theatrical. Our grief. You can choose to feel better but you don't want to. Why?

Maybe sometimes, it does help. To mope and sob I mean.

Does it?

Random

I typed an uber long post but it got lost when I accidentally backspaced and the stupid thing auto-saved. 


SIGH.


I'm glad I wrote in on a piece of paper. I'll post tomorrow. Well tomorrow. OR maybe after Biology. 


Well. 

I should be studying

You think that you're suffering but XD guess what?

So are all the others! 

XDDDDDDDDD

My A1s are increasing. Wakakakakaka. At least it seems to be increasing... : P 

I should be studying now.

: P 

To-day we love what to-morrow we hate; to-day we seek what to-morrow we shun; to-day we desire what to-morrow we fear.

Robinson Crusoe - Daniel Defoe

Lijiang

Thank you for looking pass the rhetoric and uncovering the flaws. I'll be back with a better essay. Yeah and Rooster, please stop clucking about male superiority. Thank you.

Physics

You suck.









E-learning,
you suck too.

So do you hunger.
And you anger.
No. You're actually quite reasonable anger.
No you're not bad.

Freaking application questions.
D:

Argh

I feel like kicking myself.

Argh.

Life of Pi

Friday: 

- Chemistry test D:

- Meeting with cadets :D

They are so enthusiastic! 

Gold FTW. 

- YOG appreciation party till 10.30pm :]

Sad that I had to leave early. 

- Staying overnight at Xin Jie ma'am's house XD

Chiong-ing kinematics. 

- Sleeping at 5am and waking up at 8.45am

Saturday:

Slept till 4pm when I could have studied. : /

I have been stuck in a deep ditch. And now I'm out. And I can see the sunlight. And I can feel the warmth. And I'm so happy for more reasons than one. EOYs, I'll CRUSH you. 

Like a cockroach. Only you're not one. You're really nice really. I like you.

And I freaking abhor you.

Feel that throb in my mind. I'm filled to the brim with Red Cross and the EOYs. Stress is great. YEAH STRESS! I'm living deliberately. I'm living with groove. I'm living with a purpose and I'm living for you. I'm living.  I'm leaving. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I'm not living for you. I'm living because of them. They gave me the things you've never given me. And I love them for that. I love you my NCOs. I really do.

:]

And Thoreau said, "most men lead lives of quiet desperation."
I nodded.
"I know."

Red Bean Soup

This is a happy post so don't kill yourself.


In my search for the ultimate brain food, I gouged myself with raisins, fish, fish oils, carrots and a variety of other really bland food. Do they help? Well the raisins do. But there must be something better. My latest experiment came recommended by some really smart people(don't ego) so hopefully it works.

Wow...It has been more than ten years since I've last tasted the horrible concoction. Sheesh. Here's an account of my erm experiment. Wish me luck :P

I try to pull the plastic cover off. It's stuck. Oh it's open. It smells like the fatty meat soup thing. It tastes sweet. Very sweet but I suppose it does help in overnight studying. Especially if it's hot. The soup soaks my mouth leaving a well, red bean-ish aftertaste. There's only soup and mashed red beans when I scoop a spoonful. Of course. What else was I expecting? : /
It's not that bad after awhile.

And I feel more refreshed.

And prepared to tackle the EOYs.
Woohoo!

Dead Poets' Society

That's going to be a habit.

Ah. They keep quoting poetry. And I recognise them! :D My efforts are paying off. They are! :D

I feel like I really know what I should do and where I will go. It's not often you get a feeling like this. I'm on the right path. I can do this. I can do this! 

And I can do it without you. 

Ha.


Stuffing your ears and singing out loud.
I LOVE IT. 

Dare to soar

Dead Poets' Society FTW.

Bland

Oh joy. My uber post got deleted. 

Welcome to The Infallible Rule. It has the same background, the same fonts, the tag board, the same playlist but it won't have the same shit. The person writing this won't be the same either because she has come to a revelation. She has been passing life thinking that people are stupid. She looks down on others and that's going against the principle of Red Cross. That's wrong. She should change that. But that is not the revelation. That's just a thought she is toying with but most likely would not follow. This is the revelation:

She needs improvement. 

The writer needs to write better. She needs to care more. She wants to. 

She must be meticulous. 

Unrelated note from the writer: 

It's in two years. In two years I'll leave you. You'll feel hurt and I will too but it's for the best. Perhaps putting some distance between ourselves will do us good. It's for the best really. 

Note: Add oil for YOUR exams. Keep your goals in sight. 

The collective scribbling and page flipping when the teachers give us extra information.

And their eyes met as she uttered carpe diem.

And that threw me back two

Little darling, it's been a long, cold, lonely winter.
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here.
Here comes the Sun, here comes the Sun,
and I say it's alright.

I feel like singing:D
Oh I can't wait for Monday.
There're accreditations and Novena.
Oh I can't wait for Tuesday.
Oh wait. Actually I can.
Oh I can't wait for Wednesday.
Oh I can't wait for Thursday.
Or Friday.


But I look forward to the weekends the most. :DDDDD


oh I'm so happy with my combined humans.. 
It's so huggable.
:D


STUPID OPTIMIST. LET'S SHOOT YOU DOWN.
:O Oh! But why? We bring hope and sunshine!
FALSE HOPES! YOU LIE!
We wanted to make you feel better:(
You made it worse.


Thankfully school starts at 9.30am tomorrow.

: /

Qian Wennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

I want to study with you : /

hiatus over

I must be cruel to be kind.


To myself and the others. It'll pay off tenfold.


Hopefully.
: /

Hiatus

For two days to brush up on Physics and Chemistry.


Goodbye.

Hungry

The unichannel's tag board is being filled by different people with very different ideas. I like that. 

:]

Undisclosed

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart,
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask,
I want to exorcise the demons of your past,
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.

I know what I want to do, I know how I can do it, I know why I should do it, and I know where I can do it.

But you don't allow me to and that restricts me. Never mind, I'll adapt. I am after all, a living breathing thing that reacts to changes- albeit reluctantly sometimes.

So much loneliness met so suddenly in such an unlikely place. And conversations sprung up. Ooh now I'll feel like babbling every time I come online. You learn so many things from people so different. But it's obvious we all like to talk about ourselves.

X)

Scrabble

He lived with this festering inside of himself, eating his heart away. For it was not like "divine love", which is a pretty impersonal affection for humanity in general.

This was the doomed, obsessive, pathological kind. 

        
It's nice how Spidey has this Spidey sense thing. It makes him feminine.

: /


Let's post about an outrageous topic that will get the pots and rooster clucking.
If David is a nihillist and Kyx is a hedonist, wouldn't they be the negative and positive  sides charges of a magnet views in Rooster's mother's head ? A black to a white(non-related to physics), the t-shirt to that shorts, the sun to the moon, the Northies to the Southies. The no-life skeptic to the self-indulgent emo.

Opposites attract.
:]

Tingles

It's weird knowing that the onslaught of pots and pans in this blog means that I have to write with more discretion. A single phrase might be scrutinized and debated against(That's just me flattering myself). OH blabshoubawocky. 

I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL:(

But no one listens. 

You should all dig your ears. 

Ahahaha.

Ahahahaha.

It's over.

X)

Rush

Short short post.
Past one month have been spent in prep. of FAC. For this day. It was a good learning experience. Got to meet people:] A little disappointed. Getting top three will help in our EUA. But we got a second runner up for North district. Everyone's hard work must be acknowledged however. We'll improve and do better next year! I'll be interviewing people for feedback okay?


Yeah.


The past two days have been spent between FAC and the concert for the PRC people at SP. Coming back at 11pm after shuttling between both ccas left me drained. But seeing how the concert and FAC ended up, it was worth it really.


It seems that every unit has their own internal conflict. Reading about them makes me really sad. But that's life isn't it? They'll always be a black in reverse of a white. We'll all know at least one person with a contrasting character and they'll always be discord. And that's sad. Because we can all really just be friends.


OMG TIMES BOOK SALE IN BISHAN TOMORROW. ALL BOOKS ARE GOING AT $2. I'M SO EXCITED!